May 23, 2012

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There’s a place that ends here I know

When they close the gates I’ll cry

I’m so tired of never sleeping

The whole world wants what we’re on



Lord lord mother you’re all losing love 

Lord listen lover you’re all missing mama

Lord lord mother you’re all losing love

Lord listen lover you’re missing something I don’t got


As able as this song is to evoke memories and faces from the past I don’t always want to remember, it’s also one of those songs who’s message changes and applies time after time, year after year.

May 12, 2012

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I drove down to Tucson today to go say congrats to my friend Symone for graduating from the UofA. We’ve known one another since we were 8 years old. We were part of the “cool” group in elementary school, but I was only kept around because most of them liked to pick on me. Not Symone. At lunch, she would always help me find my lunchbox after the other girls had hidden it from me. As you can imagine, these kinds of semi traumatic childhood bonds are pretty strong. Even in my eight year old stupor, I knew such support meant she was my good friend, and she knew shit was too fucked up for her to idly stand by. 

We never again were in school together after the fifth grade, but we always stayed in touch. Her and her twin sister were the first people I knew who got a car when we were sixteen. sweeeeeeet 

She always went with me to all the parties where I knew the boy I liked would be. She was the first person I would introduce any interest to. She always listened. 

We learned the definition of a crazy night together. We learned how to smoke pot together. 

Once we hit college, I moved out of town, and we both changed exponentially. She became pretty religious, and I became pretty gay. I remember being scared of telling her I liked a girl, but surprisingly enough, I don’t remember when I told her. I just remember how she was always there for me as I learned what heartbreak meant. 

Being gay is something her religious views and cultural views don’t accept, but she knew she accepted me. “You’re not gay B, you’re just B!”, is what she always said. Sometimes I would take offense, wanting her to accept gays more, or something, but as the time passed, I realized the only thing that was important, was that she was still my friend. 

And today we get to celebrate her accomplishments. She’s been through thick and thin during her undergrad. Boys, betrayal, rebellion, etc, etc. But she fuckin’ made it, and still has that heart of gold that has kept the two of us together for 14 years. 

Cheers to good friends! 

May 9, 2012

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I’ve had a Tumblr for the last few years. Originally, I only made it so that I could creep around on other Tumblrs, look at pictures of lives that weren’t mind, socialize annonymously. 
But like most other aspects of my life, I have slowly evolved from observer to participant. And so I wondered if it would be worth it to start my own blog. 
Then came the dread of having to choose a theme, some sort of a cohesive thought readers could find in the posts. How intimidating. Step forward, step back.
Once I decided my Tumblr could be as scattered as my brain, came the intimidation of writing something that would allow someone to get an idea of who I am. And so when words fail me, go to images, right? 
So click on the photo above and find a series of places, people, ideas, memories and experiences that have in one way or another played or continue to play a role in who I am. Its not all, its not many, just a taste. 

I’ve had a Tumblr for the last few years. Originally, I only made it so that I could creep around on other Tumblrs, look at pictures of lives that weren’t mind, socialize annonymously. 

But like most other aspects of my life, I have slowly evolved from observer to participant. And so I wondered if it would be worth it to start my own blog. 

Then came the dread of having to choose a theme, some sort of a cohesive thought readers could find in the posts. How intimidating. Step forward, step back.

Once I decided my Tumblr could be as scattered as my brain, came the intimidation of writing something that would allow someone to get an idea of who I am. And so when words fail me, go to images, right? 

So click on the photo above and find a series of places, people, ideas, memories and experiences that have in one way or another played or continue to play a role in who I am. Its not all, its not many, just a taste. 

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